Saturday, January 21, 2012


My twins turn 9 tomorrow. I got them two presents each. I hope they like them. They aren't fancy, or big, or expensive, or anything.

This is their first birthday after my divorce. I don't know what it's like growing up with divorced parents. I don't have any idea.

I know people can turn out great growing up in divorced households. I know that what's important is being a loving parent, and giving your kids love, and giving them a safe and happy environment. You don't need to tell me that.

I don't want to be married to the person whom I was married to for 10 years (Fun fact: 10th anniversary happened 6 days before the divorce was final). I don't want her back, ever. She did awful things to me; things I can't forget.

But, here's this. I wish I could have given my kids a mom and dad to grow up with. I wish I could have given them that. I wish, I wish, I wish.

Happy birthday, kids. I love you so much.

1 comment:

Phyllis said...

Being a great Dad is the best anyone can do. We all have endless lists of things we "wish". Don't be down on yourself, they love you and one day they can look back and remember the great Dad you have always been.
Aunt Phyllis